Sometimes you just gotta write

...and now is one of them, even though I have no plan for my writing.

Tomorrow is my last day in my basement suite here in Calgary. Some of you may not have known I was in Calgary for the last 3 months. That's how sad my life has been. Work. Oh, work. Statistics Canada. Census, 2006. Gong. Gong.

I tell you what, I am looking forward to having some time off before school. Because I need to debrief. Decompress. De-stress. But especially debrief. I think I've learned a lot in the last 7 or 8 months of being on the road, but I haven't had much time to process. Yes, I processed in Egypt, and blogged on it. But I didn't have time to process upon return. And I haven't done much thinking about my life in light of this summer, either.

All of that, to be honest, is just an excuse. It allows me to suck and not feel so bad. Lets be honest. I make poor decisions, choose negative coping, fail to set boundries, etc. Then I get miserable. Then I just say, well, I'll debrief. I'll reevaluate. And the hard part is the tension that exists because partly it's just a cop out, but on the other hand it's just really true. I do suck. And all that I can hope to do is notice it, think about it and try to learn a little about it so as not to repeat it.

I have more thoughts but they are mildly dangerous given the difficult medium of posting, with an absence of non-verbal communication and an absence of regulation as to who reads my post.

Peace.